I think see a correlation between the return of these challenge posts and the number of things I have to do. 

81. Last person you cried in front of?

I can’t give names because they were all strangers and I’m not even sure if they were able to tell that I was crying. I had my darkest sunglasses on and I was trying my best not to show that I was crying. 

I don’t think I’ve ever cried on the train before, or at least so much. It was after I dropped off Avi and Alex at Port Authority to go back to Binghamton once Rosh Hashanah break was over. I’d had the best weekend of my young adult life and I was so sad to see Avi leave again so soon. I also wanted the chance to see their bus pull out but it turned out that I was on the other side of the building and consequently, I was too late. I suppose it was more than seeing him leave and missing him, though. I was in the middle of Times Square surrounded by people, most who must have had friends or family with them and I was all alone. Again. 

So from Grand Central to maybe around 33rd St on the 7 train, I was crying silently in front of strangers, immersed in sadness while stress-eating knock off Twizzlers from Duane Reade and some green tea Arizona.

22. Where would you like to travel? 

As much as I would love to travel abroad again soon, I think where I need to be is here in New York City. I know there are so many places that I have to visit right here and that every destination is thirty minutes to an hour away from my house. I just feel the need to go out there and discover my home first and then go out into the world. Plus, this perfect weather is beckoning me to explore. Not being able to is such a burden. 

Chunky sweaters and scarves and jackets. It makes me feel like taking the train to the city and walking around. Without destination, without purpose. Sight-seeing the tourist hot spots, discovering hidden gems, observing people as they walk by and hopefully, catching a glimpse of their conversations. I want to be surrounded by hectic crowds at one moment, then engulfed by silence and solitude the next. I want to feel the brisk winds through my hair only to find warmth and comfort in his arms after. 

I have been looking forward to this kind of weather, these kinds of feelings, for what seemed like forever. I’m absolutely ready for autumn and winter.